jelliebeers

eavesdropping on my neighbors fucking
dreaming about nothing
sweating under velvet bed sheets
killing cockroaches

watching videos of the morbidly obese
eating handfuls of dry cereal
pouring milk into my mouth from the carton
worrying about getting fat

ignoring all of your phone calls and texts
ditching the party down the street
reading depressing books as pdfs
drinking from a flask

avoiding showers from saturday to thursday
scratching my head
picking black polish off my nails
taking up smoking

sulking around the park
trying to make friends on the internet
obsessing over things i can’t control
wondering what you’re doing

writing things and never finishing them
realizing i don’t understand grammar
deciding that i don’t like anything i’ve ever written
posting a blog entry